This all seems very familiar to me - 2020 has been a trial for us all. My ability to concentrate really took a hit, and I've been struggling to commit myself to work as well particularly in the last couple of months. Shortly after we stopped going to the office, departments were rearranged so that I no longer had any direct reports, which was a godsend to be honest - I have enough to do without listening to other people's problems as well :) On the sleep front, it's exactly the same for me - every single night I tell myself that I'll go to bed earlier and start dragging my waking time back, but it never happens.

For the last ten months we've just lived as best as we can, taking turns to work and take care of Penny (4 years old two days ago!) She's both a major complication in our lockdown life and really the only reason I get out of bed in the morning... without her, I think I'd be a lot less healthy just now. Sometimes I love the idea of just living alone and having no complications, but I think I'd crave human contact very quickly.

I'm glad that you're beginning to get the help that you need, and I hope that we can all crawl out of this trying time very soon.